Some things I need to do better.

The biggest thing I need to do better is get a project actually accomplished. I've been trying to do a number of things, and stuff has largely fallen through. Partially because I don't have the right contacts to really make things soar, and partially because I'm a little bit timid and haven't really been getting after it. The only way to learn this stuff is to do it, and I've been ducking doing some of this stuff. The only person really being hurt is me, but still I need to buckle down get something built so that I can turn around and help other folks do it.

I need to write more. Not the stuff I write here either. Writing about generalities and abstracts is fine, but I need to figure out more specifics. I think writing fiction. Just a little bit, to help me round out stories. I tend to be rather critical of my own fiction, and effective criticism is a great way to polish ideas and polish myself. I used to debate things online, but the place I did so changed in composition and the quality of discussion dropped off. Rather than just find another place to talk things through online, I would like to talk things through while also generating something that is worth the time of a non-involved party. I know the secret to being a writer, whether as a hobbyist or as a profession, is just writing, but I'm bad at hold myself accountable and I don't have anyone to be accountable to when it comes to writing.

I need to be a more helpful, since right now I only encourage folks to pick up a hobby. I know very talented people, who have hobbies and skills that, quite frankly, boggle my mind. Those same people have problems related to money. It shouldn't be that hard to find buyers for art. I always think to myself, there's an answer here. I need to figure out a way to bring those skills to market. I just haven't the slightest idea how. That shouldn't be an excuse. I just need a better idea and clearer understanding of the tools I actually have at my disposal.

I need to learn to better include others. I have this unrealistic expectation I that I should be able to handle everything myself. Maybe it's pride. Maybe it's that I'm still not entirely sure of myself and don't want to expose anyone else to failure. I know that I lack the complete skill set and boundless energy required to do everything by myself, but I need to really understand this fact. Or at the very least find people with complementary skill sets that I can trust. I have good ideas. People remark upon this some times. I'm frustrated by my inability to create them in anything more concrete than words.

I would ask for help using this outlet, but I'm never sure if anyone actually reads it.